Skinny Girl Dying To Break Free....

As I sat here looking through blogs today....blogs to help encourage me in my Christian walk and blogs to help with my desire to dramatically shrink my body...when I came across this blog.  Just so anyone reading is aware, this isn't a New Year's resolution, the whole losing weight thing.  This is something that I've wanted for a long time.  Wanted, then gave up on, then wanted again and gave up yet again.  The proverbial  yo-yo.   This time is different though and I've waited awhile as I started doing this on my own because I figured if I quit (and when did I become a quitter?) no one would know.  I'm tired of quitting and this is a way to ask you, each one of you reading, to help me however you feel called to help me reverse my quitting ways.

This post was on Jen's page.  As I sat there reading it I started to cry.  I would love to be able to say that I've forgotten what it's like to be winded after a few flight of stairs....but I can't and I haven't been able to say that for a very, very long time.  So, I'm changing some of the things that she said to fit myself.  A way to come back to this anytime I need motivation and remember what it was like when I was at my rock bottom.....never mind, fat bottom.

I want to never forget what it feels like…
to get winded walking up a few flight of stairs.

I want to never forget what it feels like…
to loath clothes shopping and heading to the kitchen gadgets instead.

I want to never forget what it feels like…
to get rid of smaller clothes because “You’ll never lose the weight”.

I want to never forget what it feels like…

to only feel comfortable wearing black.

I want to never forget what it feels like…
to feel guilty after eating.

I want to never forget what it feels like…

to feel like I have no control.

I want to never forget what it feels like…
to be ashamed of the wobbly bits that seem to come out of nowhere.

I want to never forget what it feels like…

to be my “fluffy” self.

***To see Jen's original post please follow this link***http://www.priorfatgirl.com/